Life is weird

Well,

It's been a bizarre past few weeks.

Crying in front of people three days in a row because of friendship fall outs was extremely strange. But I'm blaming it on PMS.

Then I missed Evelyn's birthday surprise because I decided I couldn't handle seeing him. Think I needed to prove to myself that I didn't need to see him. Ended up being a good night of lying on the cool marble floor next to Tess in a nice sisterly moment, fixing the bad feels with mouthfuls of ice cream + banana + melted chocolate + pancake, listening to David's simple life solutions and watching the film "Wild".

I tried so hard to justify my uncharacteristic behaviour. In my mind, I've never perceived myself as an emotional person. I don't fly into passionate rages, I don't cry waterfalls. I'm logical, I'm practical. Feelings are important, but not as important as what needs to be done. But hey, life is a journey of self-discovery and perhaps I feel more than I care to admit.

Watched '500 days of summer' and 'Sleeping with other people'. Two good movies I needed to watch for some perspective. A reminder that there's a bigger picture and to ride each emotional wave to shore.

Also made dinner plans with Evelyn to attempt to build a bridge. You can't hate a person once you get to know them. And it's working. The pain of betrayal is blurring, seeping into the background. Sort of.

Me.