Sentiments? O.o

Right.

I am not 100% sure of the details, but from what I do know is that pettiness still happens as adults. I thought people grow out of all that, for lack of a better word, meanness. Apparently it's not just teenagers who hold petty grudges, whisper behind backs and exclude. Huh. Dear future Erica, please make sure you are not as immature as that.

Not that I can say, with absolute certainty, that I don't do that now. In fact, I think I do do it to a certain extent. So I shall stop. So it doesn't grow and become a horrible habit that hurts people. Then I'll be all alone and friendless. Not that that's the only reason. It's wrong. >< eheh.heh.heh. Yes yes, I'm quite selfish sometimes. Which is why I try to make myself do good things and to be a good person by making up selfish reasons that would convince my overly inward focused self to be nice. Does that make sense? D: Because I do want to be a good person.

Meh. Life's too complex to figure out.

OH. I watched this video. It encompasses a whole lot of my childhood memories in Malaysia.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=CzkAPMWNSGc

Nostalgia: A sentimental longing for the past, typically with happy personal associations.

Erica

Complexities of the mind

Hm,

I have kinda missed blogging.

Lately, I've been starting to realize how very interesting my family is. So much drama, hushed up secrets, scandals (to a certain extent), complex relationships etc. Are other families this interesting? I'm hoping Tess does end up writing a novel on our extended family, to consolidate it. I, for one, would buy a copy.

Right now, James is the 'person of interest'. BAHHA omgsh I can't believe I just made that reference. Anyway, back to seriousness. I'm really worried about the Lim family. Everything that's happened would have evidently had some kind of impact on his developing psychological state. Who knows what thoughts are running through his mind, causing him to behave in the manner he is. How one is brought up, the influences around you, really do have an immense affect on one's character.

It's crazy how distorted someone's perception can become; how your mind can weave the most ludicrous bunkum and the blindingly obvious truth is suddenly camouflaged. You can't see it unless you know what you're looking for.

I wish I could mind-read. Then I could understand how people are wired, get insight into how and why people do the things they do. Because I am honestly just stumped. I'm pretty sure I'm much easier to figure out, as much as I would prefer otherwise. O.o

One of those un-understandable human beings?

Me.

Parallel universes

Sick.

I'm having a headache as a result of incessant coughing fits. It's horrible. And I'm in an I-seriously-just-can't-be-bothered-doing-anything mood. Except maybe blogging. Plus I'm coold. And I have a maths sac next Wednesday to study for.

Okay. Stupid complaints. You see, last Wednesday, we had a F&L class and we learnt about human trafficking. We were bombarded with videos and this website 'http://love146.org/'. Everyone was just shocked to a stunned silence by the horror of it all. These innocent, psychologically undeveloped children deceived, exploited, forced to become prostitutes; exposed to physical, mental, emotional torture. Unimaginable things beyond our comprehension.

Think about it. Right this moment, happening in a multiple of places on Earth are screams of pain, suppressed trauma, human beings suffering in silence. It literally is two opposite parallel worlds. So who am I, really, to complain of well. Anything?

I know. It's just a blog post filled with words. Maybe this is just a temporary phase: okay, so poor children are suffering, I feel bad, then 2 days later, nothing changes. But I don't want it to be.

Maybe there's nothing much I can do right now, but here's me making a promise to myself.

I will do something, someday.

Erica

Instinct vs. Logic

I kind of hate that feeling when you think you're getting the 'I don't like you' vibes from someone, because you never really know, do you? It could all be a figment of your wild imagination. The fact that it has a history of over-analysing things and paranoia just increases the possibility of it being fiction.

So do you go with your nagging gut-feel?

Or do you go with the option that would make life oh so much simpler and happier and care-free? The option that does hold basis.

Best option? Completely forget the thought ever crossed your mind. :)

'I don't like you' vibes? No idea what you're talking about. Everyone likes meh.

HAH. I'm so funny.

Erica