Heck of a horseriding camp

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Horseriding camp. Was. Epic (credits to Isabel for the word). I'm definitely horse person and if I ever get a billionaire husband, he's buying me a horse. :)

Day 1
Chilled bus ride with Meher listening to music. She likes my music taste! loool. I met Macca, who didn't quite like me at first. He wouldn't let me pet him and just would not stop eating during the ride. It was alright. Just walking around in a large expanse of trees, leaves crunching under horse hooves, breathing in fresh air. OH but there was this puddle, and Macca jumped it. SO scary, but awesome. I was this close to falling off. OH Molly, Evon, Meher, Eileen and I cooked dinner. Chicken burritos. Then we watched Charlie St Cloud.

Day 2
Macca was soo much nicer, although I think he ate even more.. Miss him already. Anywho, more riding and TROTTING. :D The instructor dude Bradley said I was a natural. Nawwww. hehe. Pizza and apple crumble for dinner. :) And then a voice-damaging, screamo, jump-up-'n-down worthy game of Taboo. Funn. I had amazing people in my camp group. Srsly.

Day 3
Twas a picnic ride. 2 hours to the picnic spot and then 2 hours back. Bucket luunch!! Aditi's group cooked pasta. Like SO much pasta that we had to have it for the next 2 lunches. xP Ah well. And OMGSH CHOCOLATE FONDUE. Went slightly high. Oh and then all 15 of us crammed into a room and sang random songs while Myura and I looked at Meher's photo collection of hot guys. Mostly Chuck Bass and Zac Efron. LOL

Day 4
More trotting in the morning, but we were more talkative on the ride. Played Chinese horse whispers? 'Is she a male?' and 'It's Bass not bass'. :) I like trotting. Oooh then we took a trip to the local village. Visited a bug-infested garden; took lots of photos and attempted to take a short cut only to get lost. And poor Raaisa fell down and got hurt! thanks goodness there wasn't a concussion. D: Ate ice-cream, talked, ate chicken, more photos. Jing's group cooked meatballs and dhall and rice. And Molly and I helped make the most epicly disgusting dessert. Layers of jelly, chocolate, melted marshmellow, fruit, chopped up brownie. Just complete mush. HAH. And then hilarious prank calls and talking till late.

Day 5
Ms Jones made us thick, heavy, chewy pancakes for brekky. Not fantastic, but I'm not complaining. :) There was bacon and scrambled eggs too, the yummy part. OMG WE GOT TO CANTER. It was actually a most exhilarating experience. I can feel the movement when Macca starts of canter and it's really fast. The wind is wooshing in your face, your heart pumping and your hands gripping the saddle for dear life. I have to go again someday. Fed Macca a carrot and an apple and we said our goodbyes. I'll never forget him. ><

Incredibly memorable and I learnt a lot from it. Talked to many of the girls and got to know them wayy better.

On a roll,
Erica

People are just cool that way.

So,
Exaams are over. :) As cliched as it might sound, it does feel like a load has been lifted off my shoulders. No more obligation to study, make notes, repetitively read through set chunks of information to commit them temporarily into my short-term memory so I can pull them out of my brain for the sole purpose of answering a singular question on a particular exam. Now wasn't that a nice long English-y sentence? I'm quite proud of it. LOL.

Anyway, before I start rambling about a random sentence... O.o I will get to the point. Well, we got 2 papers back. Science and English. Science was good. I was quite happy with my grade, but I didn't really want to tell anyone. Because as much as I know that my friends are amazing; and would be happy for me; and would not be at all jealous because they are just cool that way, it just wouldn't feel right.

If I did better, I don't really want to boast.. If I did worse, well, not super eager to share either.. So the only time I feel utterly at ease, is when I get around the same. Which is why I think it's better for whatever I get to just be unknown. :) It's irrelevant. Doesn't matter.

Still not the point.. The point is, that my mark got out anyway. And well. My friends and classmates were just ever so nice. And hugged and congratulated me. And I just got this overwhelming sense of contentment. And gratefulness that I was so lucky as to have people like that around me.

OKAAY. Mush-ness overload. >< I shall stop. But I just wanted to post a happy post. Rather than continuously post depressing posts. I have wayy too much to be constantly complaining and comparing.

Caaamp tomorrow. Horseriding. :)

Kind of excited,
Erica

Chillaxing

So,

Yesterday was the Year 10 study for exams which is tmrw tmrw (mini freak out). And Rachael, Tiff and I went to the ceramics room to chillax/destress/kind of study after studying for the morning. Twas fun. :) And soothing. Seriously, I don't know what I would do without ceramics classes sometimes. It's just so.. Chill. I can't think of any other word to describe it.

Oh and I got to listen to music while tramming home. :) And on the walk home, this white butterfly followed me for almost 100m. Honest. I think it was a sign. >< Idk. But it felt nice. OH and I found these adorable mini apples. They aren't actual apples, they're the seeds of another random plant. I think. BUT they look like mini apples and are about the size of peas.

Life's being livable. I guess.

Savouring the good things,
Erica

Tired

I'm tired.

I don't know if I can do it anymore. Physically, mentally, emotionally just. Tired. Everything seems to take up more effort than it usually does. Smiling, pretending everything's okay, being cheerful.

Then again, the alternative seems to be harder. Explanations, maybe tears, and the probable lack of understanding. No one would understand.

So I go out there, act, feel better for a bit, then return feeling empty yet again. Drained.

Some things that seemed to important become insignificant now. Me placing importance on those things seems childish now. Oh idk. It's all about perspective.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CIkk2icOpHQ
'Breathe by He is We' a song I came across the other day.

In need of a life purpose.
Oh wait no. I have one. To study for exams. Ugh.
Me.