Different forms of fun

So,

Blurple. Tried my first 2 yaegerbombs (how do you spell that?). Good music, people, dancing and fun. Nuff said. Took the morning 5.15am train home with Martyn, Phil and Jeffery. Hey, I pulled my first all-nighter and slept in for once in my life. The night out was enjoyable, but brekkie at 2pm was totally the highlight.

Korean dinner for Viv's birthday celebration. I've said this before, but there's something warming about hanging with Viv, Vicky and Isabel. Old friends. An ease? A comfortable awkwardness in catching up and finding things to talk about. I can't describe it. A reassuring sense that they know you, at least better than most others, after having spent so much time together. More music and dancing at Scarlett Saturdays. Was it worth that $27 entry though? Just.

Yum Cha lunch with Mum&Dad's lifegroup. A table of 10 kids. 2 girls, 8 boys. Year 9s, Year 11s, Year 12s and me. Laughed much more than expected. Ordered endless amounts of food to increase everyone's finger depiction of their fullness scale. Made a sesame seed heart, stuffed my face with mochi ice-cream & egg tarts, got peer pressured into eating a cube of jelly (by KIDS!), added a tea leaf moustache & goatee to a chilli sauce face on a napkin, joked about the greedy glint in the waitresses' eyes as they pushed food onto our table hoping to take advantage of the insatiable appetites of youth... Basically acted shamelessly like a 15 year old. And loved every moment.

Dreading the day that I get too old for this. Or become someone who thinks they're too cool for this.

Enjoying the best of "young adult partying" fun and "childish silly" fun.
Me.

Driving Dread

Challenge accepted.

I will learn to drive and it will become second nature to me. The thought of driving a car will not fill me with dread.

I'll master the fear that at any moment, the slightest mistake, misjudgement of timing or space will lead to death and destruction. (Sounds like an exaggeration. But think about it. It's true)

I shall climb over this fear of driving. I can't keep avoiding it, making other people drive me to places and surviving on public transport.

Time for some tedious practice.

In need of a break

It's been a long day.

A badly done 3 hour exam. A humbling reality check.

I scraped off the brightly coloured paint to take a long, hard look at the rusting metal underneath. It wasn't pretty. I wasn't pretty. Not that the painted surface was particularly appealing anyway. It was the wrong shade, a little too glossy, the colour of plastic toys. It had been appropriate for a certain period in the past, but now it just looked outdated. So what now? Time to search for some new colours maybe.

I was definitely pushing it at Lifegroup tonight. All I wanted to do was crawl into bed and stay there for a week. That's still all I want to do. But sometimes, you have to do what you don't feel like doing. That's what responsibility is, right? Maturity... Right?

Having said that, there were silver linings. The girls are bonding-ish. I feel like Eden really needs a solid group of girl friends and and we're heading in the right direction. :)

I need to stop comparing. It is depressing. It's probably just an off day though.

Trying to read between the lies.
Me.

Definitions

Define friendship.

Google says it's "the emotions or conduct of friends." What is a friend? Well apparently it's "a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection."

Well thanks Google, you just answered my question. Not. Please that was so not helpful. Not to mention extremely vague. Psh.

So according to your definition, Google, friendship could be purely emotion-based. The feeling of buddiness, zero action required. Hm, questionable. Then you go on to say 'conduct'. I guess that's closer. You have to at least behave like a friend. But come on, you could put your best buddy self forward, pretend to care, but really, not give two chewed pieces of gum about the other person. I'd hardly call that friendship.

A "bond of mutual affection" sound promising. It has to be a 2-way thing that links two people together. Plus affection sounds like such a warm, fuzzy word. But it's just a feeling really. And feelings are so temperamental. They come and go and change for good reasons, bad reasons, and no reason whatsoever. Where is the commitment, the I-will-stick-by-you-no-matter-what, the we-know-and-accept-each-others'-flaws... All the stuff that books and movies are built around? Right. That's why it's called fiction. Okaaaay. Unrealistic. Life doesn't work that way. People don't exist with the sole goal of being a good friend. A gazillion other factors come to play. lol. I get it.

The point of this? There is no point. (haha sorry, time, for wasting you) Just me procrastiblogging about how intangible friendship actually is. And how it means different things for different people.

Man I really shld've been studying ARA.
Me.