You.
I do not like you. No, I'm pretty sure I don't. I just miss the feeling of excitement and anticipation; the smiles and exchanged glances. Sure, it never meant anything, but it was good fun. And right now, I just happen to be craving some fun. Life's been rather monotonous. Okayokay I admit it! I liked the attention.
It was amusing, playing out overly corny Korean drama scenes in my mind. I needed a face for the male character and yours had the most potential to suit the part. You weren't perfect for the role, but hey, I'm not perfect either. The whole mysteriousness was attractive; how you never gave much away.
If you had tried, you probably would have succeeded. I'm so very easily convinced. Grh. Why did you have to be at Kim's party? Why. I would've been free to enjoy myself so much more. You ruined it. Thanks, mate. You suck. I say that with utter vehemence.
But I guess it was never meant to work out and wouldn't have worked out even if things had been different. Time to, not forget, but leave the past behind (appreciate it and reminisce occasionally. maybe), accept the present and embrace the future. To move on.
Perhaps I should cut off any contact with you to get things sorted out in my head. Gosh I really need to sort out my head. Priorities, values, direction in life and all. It's all rather overwhelming. Too harddd and confusing. I just can't be bothered. Can't I just cruise through life and deal with what comes when it comes?
I hate this.
Disgustingly pathetic.
It must run in the family. LOL. (nono. what am I on about? absolutely over it.)
Ugh,
Me.
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