What is friendship?
Is it really just an association that arises from nothing more than similar interests and backgrounds? No more than a product of frequent interaction resulting from overlapping circumstance? And once circumstances change, the friendship ends.
Well that's absolute rubbish.
Friendship to me was always something that goes deeper than that. It's supposed to be a lasting bond. Even with clashing personalities, differences in values or opinions or beliefs, it works somehow. It's built upon a mutual understanding, an acceptance of the other person: flawed character, annoying habits and all. No, it's not someone who happens to know how to say the right thing at the right moment to make you feel better, but it's someone who tries. Someone who wants to make you feel better, to build you up, to listen, is honest, cares enough to give you tough love when you need it.
Which one is the truer friend? The person you've spent the most time with, created the most memories with, laughed the most with? The person who best understands you? The person most apt at cheering you up? The person with the wisest advice? Or is it the person who just so happens to share your interests, hence with whom you have the most to talk about and enjoy spending time?
Honestly, I don't know anymore. But I do know it's not a real friendship if you have to pretend. And if you can't rely on them to be there when it counts. And if there's no trust.
Man, I don't want to lose my friends next year. It's not about moving on. It's about caring about what happens to the people that you've spent 6 years of your life with. It's about having people to fall back on when you need to rant or when you're feeling sad. Why start the whole long, tedious process of getting to know a stranger, who they are, how they are and why they are, when you already have people that get you? Well, get you better than anyone else at that point.
But I don't want to be the only one holding on either. Friendship is two-sided.
Ughhhh. I'm not gonna cry because it takes a lot to make me cry. But tears are welling up. Just a little. This is depressing.
Oh whateverr. I guess if it really does all fall to pieces, I was lucky enough to have good friends for the duration of high school. Something others aren't as fortunate to have had.
Dispirited but appreciative-ish.
Me
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