Keeping up Appearances

Okay.

Who am I kidding? I'm just as shallow as the next person. I wish I was one of those rarities that don't care about keeping up outer appearances. Those amazing people that genuinely judge a person's worth by who they are. These are also the ones who feel completely comfortable in their own skin, no matter what type it may be. sogjsdofaposfaipfhsdgreioguef. Instead, I wish I was prettier, without my flat nose, disproportionate body, annoying chin, non-luscious hair, stubby fingers and so on. No wait. I wish I was the type of person that didn't give a damn.

Oh and what's the point of maintaining the 'nice' act when I'm actually real mean, selfish, stingy, inflexible, harsh, jealous, calculative, manipulative... I think you get the picture.

An example? I want something purely because someone else has it. I want something that I know won't happen. I want it in spite of the fact that it involves a road of hurt. What is wrong with me? Or is it just in human nature to want what we can't have?

Well. At least my brain is stopping me from acting stupidly in pursuit of such senseless wants.

Although sometimes I do wish I was more impulsive. Heh. Then more things happen. Drama is rather fun if you somehow emotionally distance yourself from the fascinating scenes that unfold. Ha. Like that's possible.

Meh,
Me

PS: An ingenious tumblr quote: "Great minds like a think." Hee. Person who came up with that is witty.